When I was a teenager, constant change was exciting and fun. I got to try new things and be spontaneous without consequence. Now, it is unstable, uncertain, scary and full of consequences that could change my life forever. Today my boss decided to (finally) let me know that he was going to let me go. We talked last Wednesday in the midst of my chaos with the loss of my beloved friend and cousin, Delaine, about having different ideas about how things should work in my current position. I was honest, so I was let go. How does that work? Anyway, I am in a strange way relieved that I am not stressed on a daily basis about what his, another girl on my team and another girl on the opposite teams moods will be like. I am going to quote Twilight just to irritate you guys but their "mood swings were giving me whiplash," man! I know I am a crazy, moody, exciting, fun, charismatic, bitchy, assertive, opinionated and loving person, but DAMN! I can control that shit at work! These people, it's like no one told them to turn off the faucet.
Anyway, I left with a friend helping carry a few of my belongings out and she was angry about the way things turned out. In fact, many people were angry about the way things turned out. I am 100% flattered that SO many people are being so supportive of me and the tiny impact I might have had in my short six months of employment there. But strangely, I am relieved. I am feeling better that I don't have to stress out about who is going to be in a bad mood today and who is going to scream at me for being imperfect and not learning exactly the way that they do (since this is how we all learn, right?). I am relieved. In fact, there is a possible job opening on the "other side" of the building where team work, people with high energy and charisma are welcome to be the way they are and in fact encouraged because it brings in more students! I hope they won't look on me unfavorably when I apply considering I went to them today and told them what was happening and still expressed my interest. When those jobs post, I am still going to apply.
So, as I was loading my car with my belongings, I got a text from another friend. She asked if I was still looking for a job. I literally walked out the door and a new one opened. I am not sure if this job is the right fit, or the right job for that matter, but I got a boost. I felt better. And it reminded me AGAIN that I have an incredible group of people always looking out for me.
How on earth did I get so lucky? I am so blessed by GOD, yep, I said it, GOD, and the universe to be surrounded with wonderful people who are always watching out for me. And not only that, people who are willing to stand up when something is wrong too. What a good feeling.
So I have decided that for now, I am meant to focus on school (I have to pay for my classes. Free ones would have started next month. Boo.), yoga and blogging. I do love to write more than I ever thought and it is coming through when I speak to my few faithful followers!
This is your lighter load, my friends. Just a brief update without taking you into the depths of emotion today. Sometimes a lighter load is a little easier to carry...
